Eyes caved
so deep…that light doesn’t reach
its dark in there
deprived of sleep
…
permanent craziness
malnourished body
hazy brain
and fixed lips extended
upward
for minutes
…
hairs so soft
of acids deposited
back arched in humbled gesture
to thee of whatever
…
bags lifted forward
to avoid falling backwards
standing in sleep
…
why so much…
torture
to this fragile bearded heart…
smokes flutter
…
I think of death
as it has befriended
me
at the seventeenth year
and so I think of
useless
my mother
…
and then I again get back
to self torture…
my Jesus…asks me
there is no escape…
either you’ll die young
or calmness will prevail
to the eternal…
…
but at least drink
some milk…
or eat some omelet
…
as hungry you ain’t gonna save the world….